I Can't See Myself

I should never talk about religion because people with imply that I am a lunatic when I question why the religion is taught this way, and not that way. We can question everything, but not the religion because it's trivial and the subject itself is protected by people who understands the religion itself on many different levels. So I am considered a minion as compared to you philosophical giants. Regardless, I still question so many things, I am surprised why I am not struck by lightening at times (or maybe this is fictional, there is no such thing as being struck by lightening when you are being a disobedient subject).

I watched a video on the eve of the Hari Raya Haji. It was a 43 minute long, documentary video about the Hajj. I really liked what I watched. It made me believe in the Power of One. Then I thought about the friends who had their Hajj when they were in primary school, while I cannot see myself doing it at that age. I still cannot see myself being there because in many way I believe I need more time to understand about what I want in life though the ideology of being wiped clean of sins, is really enticing. But I always believe that if you do good, God will repay you and show you The Way. I'm just trying to live simply. I believe in God, but doesn't mean that when I show Love to Him differently, I should be criticitised for not doing the "norm".

06.11.11

Have a splendid Hari Raya Haji!