em0 grrl

hmms..

today, as i was in the bus on my way to school, (damn 72 was full!i had to stand!)
i stood in the bus thinking, and looking outside..(old tampines rd, full of greenery) when suddenly
i realise i was at the same time looking at my own reflection in the glass.

there i stood, with my physics notes in my hand(plus my messy hair) and my TPJC uniform
my dear dear tpjc uniform. how proud i am to wear that.(my pals say it's too green though)
and there, i stood thinking, my, next yr i'm gonna be in J2. that is freaking fast.
i can't wait. yes, i cant, but at the same time, i was thinking about wat am i gonna do after
my A' levels. (1st thing 1st, am i gonna make it to the university that i want?)

i can imagine myself,(vertically challenged and all..) en route to NUS.
i can smell it...ah...the college smell,calling me...

like zul's mum told me before, i'm doing all these not because of my parents,
not because they want it, but because i want it...i do it cuz it's for me.
it's true actually.
i wanna go uni,fr my sake, cuz i know, if i do well later in life, i would not need to depend on
them anymore, but instead, i would be the one helping them.

and i know i'm doing this, for myself, on my own will, for my own benefit.

-an old uncle disrupted my thoughts-

but as i was saying, i know i'm gonna get what i want.
worse cum to worse, i'll still end up in uni, only in a different course...

my 3 choices :
#1 medicine
#2 accountancy
#3 engineering

i'm not smart, so i need to study real hard.
cuz i want this so badly, i really do