PRAYING hard

Not really enjoying life currently.
I can't stop thinking (everyday without fail) how fun it would be to be back at school in TPJC.

Depression & frustration is killing me. Emotionally at least.

Can i say the F word please. F-F-F Dang, it just won't come out. I'm too innocent for it.

Watch this.
It made me smile, only for 5sec.

Please break my record and do smile longer than 5sec while watching this:

Please? How about Now?