Love begets Love

How selfish can we be at times?
I've been so blind all these years.
It's either that i need a fresh pair of eyeballs, or my conscious is as good as an old grandma's.

I've realised things now, though that i should have realised them eons of years ago.

To start dating at the age of 14 is a horrible mistake.
You fall in love, and then you thought that you did the WRONG thing by liking him.

And then you decide, ah let's break off. He's no fun.
I realised at that point of time, i never knew i hurt someone so deep inside.
If i knew, i would never had written that letter to him, and broke his heart, at the age of 15.

I was a sordid blob of goodfornothing, at that point of time.
To think that leaving him was of course! The right thing to do.

But i still said yes the second time round to him he asked for err, my hand. We got stuck at Cloud 9 (for real this time) and were forever
in our own tralala-dum-di-di-dum land. At that point of time, our motto was Nothing Can Stop Us. Well, it didn't till today.

For once, i think i did the right thing. No one can understand us. Adults would think that we are merely the lovers of love - Love to love.
And that's what i thought so too.
But i've got it all wrong througout these precious years.

To meet someone in your life who is able to give his heart to you means a great deal in life.
But, in a relationship, there's no such thing as a 50-50.
Your love is either 60-40 or 70-30, but never 50-50.

As much as i love to Take, it's always harder to Give Back.

Till today, i am still trying to learn to Give.

Boy,it's sure tough. But i'll give it a shot.

I am happy when you are.