it's complicated

I don't mind waiting for an eternity.
But life's not just about waiting. It worth more than just patience and Patience.
patience within them,us,you,me and everyone else.
And that Patience within Us.

And how do you want me to live my life? To live a life with no regrets is absolutely absurd. That's because people always say you won't love someone until they're gone. To live. To die. To go. To forget. All these things happen for a reason. But where do you go to find these reasons...is not for me or for you to answer, but for them who left to let you into the truth. Life feels like a frazzled dream to me. Sometimes too simple, sometime too overwhelming...but never ever perfect. How can i ever understand things. They're not theoretical enough for me to figure out like a simple Math. Neither are they decipherable.

At this age, life ought to be simple. Nothing complicated, or that is what i thought.

Too many dreams slashed. Too many hopes to mention, that bore no fruit. Too many failures. But i think out of all these dozens of dreams, i believed i held on to 1 till now.

But it's all because of you.

Can't you see it. Can you see it? I pray to God that you see how much I like you. How much i hate you. How much i adore you. How many more much do you want to hear?

I'm trying to keep my sanity. I pray hard that i don't end up like a broken toy.

But it's really tiring. It's really tiring. How should i help myself?

Because all i do now is close my eyes and pretend that the things that i wanted to happen, happened.